does nothing for me anymore.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Monday, March 30, 2009
So
I was looking around the interweb today and stumbled upon a site of Aram Saroyan's "minimal poems." http://stevenfama.blogspot.com/2009/03/wow.html It's really interesting stuff. On the back jacket of one of these minimal poem books, Saroyan writes something that I have written about recently. It's great to feel like my mind is working around some of the same things that other respected writers worked around. Validation? I don't know. I do know that I will probably use what he wrote in a book of mine someday. An epigraph, perhaps. A-ram and is A-merica. It's true.
kill a man and celebrate in DALLAS!
I have almost worked at my current job for a year. I am very tired and can understand why a lot of people lose themselves after working in a job that is both time consuming and unsatisfying for an extended period of time. I get the sense that I am slowly dissolving. I am Marty McFly and my hand is disappearing and it's only a matter of time before my entire arm is gone. Where is my ambition?
I'm going to write a poem a day. Accountability. If you want something, become it? I have an idea of the person/writer/musician I would eventually like to be. Becoming that/those is as simple as a forceful acceptance. I am accepting the fact that to become something I will have to work harder than I ever have. I am accepting the fact that prioritizing my life needs to be my biggest priority. How much time have I wasted fucking myself up on my free time? Something 24 years of life has taught me: All parties are essentially the same, especially if you have lived in the same town for over five years. Same people therefore same faces. Same drinks. Same conversations. Same same same same same same same.
Being creative IS difficult when you are so tired at the end of the day. HOWEVER, creativity is not dependent on anything other than an act. The simple act of DOING. I think I write at work because I feel guilty for not writing as much as I think I should while at home. It's so easy to take naps. It's so easy to watch 24 with your roommates. Everything is simple. Even LOVE!
I am anything.
"If you look close enough you can't tell where my nose ends and space begins." -Bernard Jaffe (I Heart Huckabees)
What I'm trying to say is prepare yourself for an explosion. I'm still here. I'll be around. My face is always here.
I'm going to write a poem a day. Accountability. If you want something, become it? I have an idea of the person/writer/musician I would eventually like to be. Becoming that/those is as simple as a forceful acceptance. I am accepting the fact that to become something I will have to work harder than I ever have. I am accepting the fact that prioritizing my life needs to be my biggest priority. How much time have I wasted fucking myself up on my free time? Something 24 years of life has taught me: All parties are essentially the same, especially if you have lived in the same town for over five years. Same people therefore same faces. Same drinks. Same conversations. Same same same same same same same.
Being creative IS difficult when you are so tired at the end of the day. HOWEVER, creativity is not dependent on anything other than an act. The simple act of DOING. I think I write at work because I feel guilty for not writing as much as I think I should while at home. It's so easy to take naps. It's so easy to watch 24 with your roommates. Everything is simple. Even LOVE!
I am anything.
"If you look close enough you can't tell where my nose ends and space begins." -Bernard Jaffe (I Heart Huckabees)
What I'm trying to say is prepare yourself for an explosion. I'm still here. I'll be around. My face is always here.
Monday, March 16, 2009
i'll take it
Austin, TX:
Wednesday: Sunny, with a high near 82. Calm wind becoming south southeast between 5 and 10 mph.
Wednesday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 52. Southeast wind between 5 and 10 mph becoming calm.
Thursday: Partly sunny, with a high near 82. Calm wind becoming east between 5 and 10 mph.
Thursday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 52. Southeast wind between 10 and 15 mph.
Friday: Partly sunny, with a high near 71. South southeast wind between 10 and 15 mph.
Friday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 54.
Saturday: Partly sunny, with a high near 74.
Saturday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 57.
vs.
Lincoln, NE:
Wednesday: Partly sunny, with a high near 57. Breezy, with a north wind between 14 and 18 mph, with gusts as high as 28 mph.
Wednesday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 33.
Thursday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 55.
Thursday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 35.
Friday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 63.
Friday Night: A chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a low around 42.
Saturday: A slight chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a high near 62.
Saturday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 45. Sunday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 65.
Wednesday: Sunny, with a high near 82. Calm wind becoming south southeast between 5 and 10 mph.
Wednesday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 52. Southeast wind between 5 and 10 mph becoming calm.
Thursday: Partly sunny, with a high near 82. Calm wind becoming east between 5 and 10 mph.
Thursday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 52. Southeast wind between 10 and 15 mph.
Friday: Partly sunny, with a high near 71. South southeast wind between 10 and 15 mph.
Friday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 54.
Saturday: Partly sunny, with a high near 74.
Saturday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 57.
vs.
Lincoln, NE:
Wednesday: Partly sunny, with a high near 57. Breezy, with a north wind between 14 and 18 mph, with gusts as high as 28 mph.
Wednesday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 33.
Thursday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 55.
Thursday Night: Partly cloudy, with a low around 35.
Friday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 63.
Friday Night: A chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a low around 42.
Saturday: A slight chance of showers and thunderstorms. Mostly cloudy, with a high near 62.
Saturday Night: Mostly cloudy, with a low around 45. Sunday: Mostly sunny, with a high near 65.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
"April Not an Inventory but a Blizzard"
I like him because he's funny he talks more like
me than like books or words: he likes my knowledge and
accepts its sources. I know that there are Channel swimmers
and that they keep warm with grease because of
an Esther Williams movie. We differ as to what kind
of grease it is I suggest bacon he says it's bear
really in the movie it was dark brown like grease from a car
Who's ever greased a car? Not him I find he prefers to white out
all the speech balloons in a Tarzan comic
and print in new words for the characters. Do you want
to do some? He says--No--We go to a movie where Raquel Welch
and Jim Brown are Mexican revolutionaries I make him
laugh he says something about a turning point in the plot
Do you mean, I say, when she said We shood have keeled him long ago?
Finally a man knows that I'm being funny
He's eleven years older than me and takes pills
I take some a few months later and write
I think it's eighty-three poems I forget about Plath and James Wright
he warns me about pills in a slantwise way See this
nose? he says. It's the ruins of civilization.
-Alice Notley
me than like books or words: he likes my knowledge and
accepts its sources. I know that there are Channel swimmers
and that they keep warm with grease because of
an Esther Williams movie. We differ as to what kind
of grease it is I suggest bacon he says it's bear
really in the movie it was dark brown like grease from a car
Who's ever greased a car? Not him I find he prefers to white out
all the speech balloons in a Tarzan comic
and print in new words for the characters. Do you want
to do some? He says--No--We go to a movie where Raquel Welch
and Jim Brown are Mexican revolutionaries I make him
laugh he says something about a turning point in the plot
Do you mean, I say, when she said We shood have keeled him long ago?
Finally a man knows that I'm being funny
He's eleven years older than me and takes pills
I take some a few months later and write
I think it's eighty-three poems I forget about Plath and James Wright
he warns me about pills in a slantwise way See this
nose? he says. It's the ruins of civilization.
-Alice Notley
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